When the Smoke Clears

I’m not quitting, not on hiatus. A shadow is converging over my spirit as the joys of my day-to-day life are slipping away, and the only things coming out are poisonous right now. I have support, but I have no thoughts, no fun moments, no insights currently. I might not be posting as much but [...]

It’s quieter here. It’s safer here. I’ll be back outside soon.

Stolen Meme because I’m tired…
INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING
How do you feel today?
Far From Today – Fiona Kennedy (yeah, I’m out of it)
What’s your outlook on life?
Today’s the Day [...]

From Ace:

I think I need to remind people of those words I wrote on 1 April.

I am but the vessel from which the wine will be poured…

It’s Sunday. A motivation to head to church is lulling softly on the back of my mind but so far I have spent the weekend more silent, occasionally social, but not accomplishing anything. I spent an entire Saturday morning awake early from insomnia and did… nothing. If I were watching the day go by, watching [...]

The Special Quote for this week comes from a conversation overheard in the elevator near the school:
I don’t know… I kinda feel bad that I skipped my Ethics class today.
Well at least the professor is getting through.

While the blogson is off to a good start, (okay, who am I kidding? a great start. I’ve never gotten 22 comments on a single post.) the blogdaughter has moved and is settling in quite nicely turning over a new leaf. Then I noticed last week she wrote a little something about the eyes of [...]

We have them. Some spend their lives making them. Others avoid them and hope for the best, but no matter what, plans are essentially clods of dirt we toss into the stream of life.
Hopefully life moves us on swiftly, letting us get to our goal before we sink to the bottom, undercurrents occasionally pushing [...]

Today, no blame, no names,
one of the six senior military colleges of the United States needs prayers.

Alright, I’ve been wallowing in my private world, keeping things to myself. Yes, the rumors are true, I had dinner last night with a fine bunch of men: Denny, Zonker, Richard, Elisson, and That1Guy. I had good beer. I had great lamb, but we are all tired of Denny using his crutch as a crutch. [...]

Hey Dude,
This Global Warming thing isn’t working. Should I drive my SUV around a bunch to help out? I’m frakkin’ freezing here.

Alright, Sir, I get it.
You can lay off the signs. Seriously. Especially all the negative ones that push instead of the positive ones that pull. Yes, I’d prefer a little more stability, but, you know… whatever You want.
Really, it’s cool now. Thanks.

Between what I want to know
And what I don’t want to figure out.
Pray to God for a sign and you might get one. Hell, you might get so many and yet you will keep turning your back on them, denying the obvious, droning forward in the hopes that the sign you know is present [...]

The weekend was relaxing. The weekend was good.
And there are moments in time I will hold to myself, shared only with my thoughts and maybe another much later in time.
And then the work week starts and I again doubt. Though I should have no doubts.
So each day the best thing to do [...]

Getting up early each morning for a little non-mandatory PT (physical training) is refreshing, even though it can mean exhaustion by the end of the day. I find I have more energy for the day but by the time I get home, I’m ready to drop. So I resist the sleep until I can stand [...]